Raw Sugar

Enemy

I am my own worst enemy. I sabotage myself 9 times out of 10. It’s like I’m scared to let myself be happy or to let myself reach my full potential. If a path was paved for me and guaranteed success, I’d probably go off track run through the forest and purposely get lost. I do not know why I do this. I keep myself from achieving the things I want most. The disappointment I feel in myself is more than I can bear. It’s not disappointment from failure. Failure would be a step above. It’s disappointment that stems from fear. Fear keeping me from doing the things I know I was born to do. I can accept failing. Failing gets you one step closer. I’m just sitting on the ledge, looking down upon the life I want to live, the life that was meant for me. I’m sitting on the ledge, the only thing between me and this life is just ONE leap. One leap i’m too scared to take. I need to start this journey. I need to stop letting fear control me. I need to finally build up the courage and redeem what’s rightfully mine.

Anger = Fuel

The way I see it you can do two things with the anger you may have inside you. You can let it take over you and become wrath, you can let it drive u to a dark place and drive everyone around you away. On the other hand you can let your anger be your fuel. You can use the anger to better yourself. Dig in deeper and find out where the anger stems from or what sets off those triggers and once you do fix the problem. Use than anger to achieve everything everyone doubted you could ever attain. You can win this battle it’s just a decision you have to make. You don’t have to be angry forever. However, when you’re angry, let the anger sink into every fiber of your being..remember this feeling. Remember how bad it makes you feel, how small it makes you feel and swear to never let this action set off this trigger again. Life is beautiful. It is meant to be enjoyed. Once you accept that everything will become that much easier. Let life take you where you’re suppose to be. This means going through the downs before experiencing the ups. If you can make it through the bottom you deserve to be at the top!

Basically, I’m over good guys. Good guys are way worse than bad guys. With bad guys you know what to expect. Though you do get hurt in the end, at least you were anticipating it. It doesn’t hurt as bad as getting hurt by the good guy. The good guy noticed the little freckles on your nose no one else took the time out to notice. He acted like he actually cared about you. You were an actual person, not just a body to enjoy or a pretty face to look at. The good guy fucks you over worse than the bad guy because with the good guy you thought you could actually have a future with. Good guy made promises, bad guy made booty calls. The bad guy takes advantage of your body. The good guy takes advantage of your heart, mind, body and soul. So all these guys need to stop saying “girls only go for the jerks or the bad guys” because going for the good guy hurts so much more. So to all you “good guys” ; a big FUCK YOU.

A man fucks 50 girls he’s the man a girl sleeps with 10 and she’s a slutt. Stupidest shit I ever heard. It’s 2011. I’d gladly grow a duck just so you ignorant fucks can suck it.